Today Emily woke up at 4 am crying. I had just finished feeding Lily and set her down. Much to my dismay, the two girls battled crying for my attention for the next hour. After I would get one settled down, the other would begin to cry again. Finally at 5:30 am, I took Emily downstairs to watch part of Frozen while I got Lily settled back to sleep. After watching the last 15 minutes of Frozen, I laid by Emily on the couch. She rested her head against my chest near my heart. As we snuggled, her breathing slowed as she fell asleep. It was such a sweet treat to snuggle with her as we don't get to as often with her "growing up."
As I laid by her I thought about how maybe my heartbeat was soothing to her. When I was little I found it calming to lay by my mom and listen to her heartbeat. It was a feeling of reassurance and coming "home." There have been moments as I grown to be an adult that I have rested my head against my mom's heart and found myself in the same place - comforted, reassured, at home. As Emily grows, I too hope she feels safe in my arms and returns often.
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